Hang around with trans people and you're bound to hear it. Testosterone, it's said, is more powerful than estrogen. It makes for a faster and more robust gender transition, while estrogen works a more subtle form of magic.
According to this reasoning, "trans men 'pass' better than trans women" because we win at hormones.
This is a load of hooey.
As trans people, we are fundamentally opposed to classic biological essentialism. According to classic binary sex essentialism, a person born with XX chromosomes is ever and eternally female, and a person born with XY chromosomes immutably male. (Biological essentialists tend never to consider nonbinary genotypes like XXY or intersex people generally, because they're all about the ideology of the sex binary.)
Those who gender transition must reject chromosomal sex essentialism. We live by the tenet that it is gender identity that determines who we really are, not our chromosomes.
But a fair number of binary trans people actually cling to a variety of sex essentialism--specifically, a biological essentialism that centers hormones, not chromosomes or genitals. Hormone-replacement therapy is the most common medical transition service we access, and we are raised in a culture that treats biological sex as "more real" than gender identities or gender expression. So many find comfort in framing both their bodies and their psyches as rewrought in nature by testosterone or by estrogen and testosterone-blockers. Obviously, HRT has visible effects. Our body hair grows more robust or more fine. Voices drop or breasts bud. Our faces are gently transformed by the loss or addition of subcutaneous fat and the bulking or shrinking of facial musculature, rounding the cheek of the estrogen-employing, and chiseling the jaw of a person using testosterone. When you've been living with gender dysphoria, these physical changes are very welcome.
I've met my share of people who overgeneralize from the celebrated physical changes of hormone therapy into hormonal essentialism, attributing every change they experience to sex hormones. "Testosterone has made me less interested in talking, talking, talking." "Estrogen has made me a lot better at matching colors." But sex hormones don't make us more or less verbal, or improve or deaden our color vision. Those are social effects, and they are culture-bound.
That doesn't make them any less "real," mind you. Just like hormones, socialization is a powerful thing. Living as a woman in our society means receiving constant cues about appearance that unconsciously shape behavior, just as living as a man in our society means receiving social deference that makes a person act more boldly. And these things affect us even if, consciously, we challenge them. Estrogen doesn't make a person a better parent, nor testosterone make a parent a less-engaged one. But caring behavior is so intensely socially reinforced in people living as mothers, while those of us living as fathers receive so many messages that we're not expected to know how to braid our kids' hair and should prioritize work obligations over family ones, that we are inevitably shaped by these socializing messages without our realizing it. We can resist those pressures of which we are conscious, and socializing forces are experienced differently when one's gender identity conflicts with one's perceived sex, but nonconscious socialization is a real and powerful and ongoing process. From the moment we begin a social transition, our behaviors and inclinations are impacted strongly by socialization, which changes our perceptions and our behavior. (This is one of the things that transphobic radfem "gender crits" get all wrong. They treat socialization as something that happens when you are young, and then stops, rather than something that is happening to all of us, every day of our lives.)
But taking a shot or a pill seems much more real and concrete to people in our society than does being (re)shaped by social cues. And one way this manifests that I believe is particularly damaging is in the belief held by many people that "testosterone works better than estrogen."
Here's the thing about gender transitions: it's indeed true that most trans men transition more smoothly and swiftly than most trans women. But this isn't because testosterone "works better" than estrogen. It's because of how gender policing works in our society. Our culture values masculinity and the male while it devalues femininity and the female.
Let's examine how this works through the lens of facial hair. I've often heard people use as "proof" of the greater efficacy of testosterone the fact that taking T makes a person grow facial hair, while taking E doesn't make a beard go away. But it would make just as much sense to say that estrogen is more potent an agent of transition, because it makes a person grow breasts, while taking T doesn't make breasts go away.
Let's consider facial hair and transition in greater depth. Often before even starting hormone treatment, transfeminine individuals seek facial hair removal via electrolysis and/or laser treatments. And many experience ongoing anxiety because some hair may be left behind by these procedures, leaving a trans woman constantly worried that she may have some stubble, as the social consequences of being seen as a trans woman with a beard shadow are high. Those who transition using testosterone, on the other hand, have a much less anxiety-ridden experience in the facial hair arena. Sure, most trans men wait anxiously for their peach fuzz to materialize, and for some, peach fuzz is all they'll ever grow. But every whisker is celebrated--and not just by us, but by society.
Think about it. For a trans woman, a few whiskers are seen by a cissexist society as belying her gender identity, and the stubbly trans woman is a figure of mockery. Meanwhile, for a trans man, a few whiskers are all it takes to get a pass from the gender police. If there were actual parity in treatment, the gender police would be imposing some sort of 50% standard on either side of their gender binary. But instead, a trans woman must remove 100% of her facial hair to avoid harassment, while a trans man only needs to be able to grow 10% of a full beard to be treated as one of the brotherhood.
It's not testosterone that is working so well to benefit trans men. It's patriarchy.
Our society trains people, especially cis males, in patriarchal binary-gender-policing from an early age. Here's how we can imagine the "logic" of this system as operating: (1) immediately upon seeing a person, classify them as male or female. (2) If you can't immediately do that, this is a PROBLEM and must be addressed. (3) When your initial glance leaves you in doubt, always treat the person as male. Calling a man "she" is a terrible insult--and is dangerous, since a man whose masculinity has been insulted may feel compelled to prove his masculinity by doing violence to your person. Calling a woman "he" is actually a sort of compliment, since it confers status. And if a woman is insulted or has her feelings hurt, it's not likely that she's going to punch you in the face as a result, because that would make her look even less feminine. Anyway, she should work harder to appear feminine and attractive to men. (4) Now that the immediate snap judgment about whether to say "sir" or "miss" has been made (when in doubt, say "sir"), study the person to figure out what's wrong with them. Not being instantaneously classifiable into an M or F box is an affront, but maybe it was the last thing the person wanted (it's some really short cishet guy who is sensitive about his height). Maybe it was "negligence" (a straight cis woman who isn't doing her duty to be attractive). Or maybe it was intentional (the individual is an "effeminate" gay man, a butch lesbian, a genderqueer "he/she" weirdo, a transsexual). Intentionally breaking the binary rule of the gender police means that the offender should be punished with disdain, mockery, harassment, or even assault/sexual assault. And the harshest punishment is to be directed at those who could have had male honor, but are traitors to the brotherhood--the "swishy faggots" and "trannies" and "shemales"--dishonorable freaks all.
So those are the rules of gender-policing engagement. Now, combine them with what we discussed earlier--the high standards for inspecting the suspected transfeminine body combined with the low standards of inspecting the suspected transmasculine one. Interactively, they produce a situation in which gender policing affects those assigned male at birth much more strongly than those assigned female at birth. Of course, this is counterbalanced by the fact that people perceived as female or feminine (whatever their gender identity or physical status, really) win as a prize the joy of being catcalled and sexually harassed. But think about it. This means that for a trans man, once you've crossed that scraggly chinpatch threshhold, chances are good you get to avoid both catcalling and gender-policing harassment. The path to male privilege is pretty short. For trans women, the path to freedom from constant misgendering is much longer, much more fraught with danger, and doesn't end with the prize of relative freedom.
I know that nobody is safe from male street violence, even those deferred to as masculine men, but there's a huge difference in the regularity of the onslaught. And believe me, I understand that the safety experienced by trans men is conditional, and that if we are discovered to have breasts and/or a vagina, the best outcome is usually disgust, and the worst assault or reparative rape. But most of the time, these body parts are not seen. Transmasculine individuals just need to show up sporting that minimal evidence of beard stubble (or its inverse, the receding hairline), wearing moderately standard guy clothes, with chest bound or bundled under a sweatshirt, and the gender policing inspection stops. Not for us the unavoidable requirement that every body part be inspected for "questionable" hand size and foot size, adams apple or hairline.
So, please, let's stop spreading the lie that testosterone works better than estrogen, and that this explains trans mens' advantage over trans women. Patriarchy and the male privilege it produces explain the transmasculine advantage. And as long as we naturalize this transmasculine advantage, we do our transfeminine siblings a disservice. What we should be doing is fighting gender policing, not treating it as a fact of nature--and doing that fighting from a position that acknowledges it affects trans men less severely.
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Thursday, August 9, 2012
Nature, Nurture, and Hormonal Transition
We
are all constantly flowing with a complex mix of hormones. They
cycle like tides, they interrelate in fascinating ways, and they are
always shifting in response to our physical and social environments.
Among these are the “sex steroids,” such as estrogen,
progesterone, and testosterone. All of us, whatever our sex,
normally produce both the “female” and “male” sex hormones—in
fact, calling them “male” or “female” is very odd,
considering that a man requires estrogen to produce viable sperm, and
a female relies on testosterone for healthy muscle tone. It is the
relative balance of estrogen and testosterone—not the absence of
one or the other—that determines our secondary sex characteristics,
such as the development of breast tissue or facial hair. This
balance varies from person to person, because all sex characteristics
exist on a spectrum (with some of us living in the middle intersex
territory).
We
like to tell a simple story in which people have a biological sex,
over which is laid social gender (such as the clothing we wear, what
we do with the hair on our heads and bodies, or what careers our society deems appropriate for us). Our physical makeup is presented as asocial and unchanging.
In fact, we are naturally social beings, born to have our biological
makeup affected by our social experiences. For example, humans are
born with a capacity for language, but what language we learn depends
on the society into which we are born. And the language we learn, in
time, affects our brains. Depending on what phonemes are used in the
language(s) we learn as children, we become capable of distinguishing
some sounds and not others. If we learn a language in which
compass-point direction is incorporated when referring to objects, we
develop a much stronger innate sense of direction. If we learn to
communicate in sign language, the centers of our brain recruited to
produce communication develop quite differently. The brain is a
“plastic” organ, shaped by social experience.
In
my last post I critiqued the argument that having a trans identity
should be understood as an intersex disorder of the brain,
necessitating genital sex reassignment. I critiqued this argument
because (1) I'm intersex and abhor the argument that it is
“necessary” to surgically alter our genitals, and (2) the
experience of the intersex community cautions that if there were
indeed a medical test for some morphology deemed to represent a
"trans brain," the result would be eugenic abortion. I got
a lot of negative feedback on that post. Interestingly, some people
thought it implied an argument against medical transition, which it
is most assuredly not my intent (I've transitioned hormonally). My
argument was only with the idea that the way to win civil rights is to
champion a biological etiology for trans identity. As for etiologies
of gender identity or sexual orientation, my take is that I'm sure
they're incredibly complex, but also that they are as irrelevant as
the etiology of identifying as a "cat person" versus a "dog person," or, less flippantly, the
etiology of identifying with a particular religion. Many people
affiliate with the religion (or lack thereof) their parents expect
them too, but some do not, and either way, their religious identities
should be respected, without needing to look for a biological etiology of
religious preference to justify respect.
In
any case, in this post I'd like to discuss the interrelationship of
biology and social factors in hormonal transition.
In
my own life, I've lived under four different hormone balances.
First, I had the standard prepubertal hormonal milieu of low sex
steroids. At puberty, my gonads kicked in and I developed secondary
sexual characteristics—and because I had three gonads (two ovaries
and an ovotestis), I developed a lot of them. In later adulthood, my
internal reproductive organs were removed, and my sex steroid levels
soon fell to almost nil (with less testosterone, estrogen or
progesterone than what would be expected for a 90-year-old menopausal
woman). And several years later I began hormone replacement therapy
with testosterone, or “T,” leading to my living with typical male
levels of T, unaccompanied by the usual male levels of estrogen or
progesterone. I duly note that none of the three hormonal balances I
have lived under as an adult are typical ones. What I can report on
is what I experienced with a high, estrogen-dominant hormone load,
what it's like to live with no sex steroids, and what changed when I
went from no sex steroids to T alone.
There
is no doubt that hormone replacement therapy has biological effects.
When a person takes estrogen, “E,” (sometimes accompanied by
progesterone, “P”) to gender transition, she develops breasts,
deposits fat around the hips, and develops softer skin and ligaments.
When a person undergoes HRT with T to transition, his voice changes,
his phalloclitoris enlarges, and he grows more facial and body hair.
But we often talk about other changes. In the contemporary U.S., we
think of men as aggressive and dominant, and women as empathetic and
emotionally labile, and we expect these conditions will develop with
HRT. Often, friends and family worry that a trans man will become
violent if he undergoes hormonal transition, or that a trans woman
will become irrational. It's as if people see testosterone as the
Hormone of War, and estrogen as the Hormone of Overwhelming Emotion
(helpfully pictured in my little graphic above). In fact, the
effects they produce are much less drastic.
Changes
that follow HRT are real. But this does not mean that they are only
biological, not social. Consider something simple, like voice. A
few months after starting HRT, my voice changed. I was very happy
about this, as I was never comfortable with my voice. Clearly, T
precipitated changes in my vocal cords and larynx. But a lot of the
changes in my voice over the course of my transition have been
socially produced. First, there's the fact that I consciously chose
to “work” at my voice so that I spoke out of a lower part of my
register. It's extremely likely that this has affected my physical
vocal apparatus, just as a singer's vocal cords are affected by voice
training. But many of the changes in my speaking voice were not
conscious, while hardly being biological. They emerged from my being
perceived as a guy, without my much noticing what was happening.
Consider
this: have you ever noticed that you can often guess the gender of
the person a guy is speaking to on the phone by how he is talking?
Men in the U.S. today tend to speak with a higher pitch and
to articulate more clearly when speaking to women, while speaking in a
more mumbled, lower range to other guys. “Hi, Mia. Oh, sure, I
can meet you at 4 instead. See you then!” vs. “Hey, bro.
Uh-huh. Yeah, well. See ya.” So I found myself on the receiving
end of bro-talk, and as a result, the way I speak changed. My spouse
teases me about my grunted, blasé “uh-huhs.” Social
interactions changed the way my voice sounds. You can't tease out
the physical sex and social gender effects, because they interact to
produce my voice, but they are both there, each influencing the
other. And both components are equally “real.”
So:
even the embodied changes during HRT that seem physical and simple
are both biological and social. The social effects on the more social
aspects of our masculinity/femininity are almost certainly more
pronounced. Let's consider the idea that men are more aggressive, that this must be biologially caused by T, and thus that HRT with T will make a person more
dominant and violent. This belief is shaped by two things: first, by a
cultural ideology shared by all patriarchal societies that men's
dominance of society is natural, and secondly, by media reports on the phenomenon
of “roid rage” in cis men who use T illegally to build muscle
mass for sport or body building.
Let
me talk about “roid rage” first. This occurs in people who abuse
T because they take it in large and irregular doses, causing big
hormone spikes. And hormone swings do make people irritable. This
is seen, for example, in cis women who experience premenstrual mood
swings, because the level of P rises, then falls abruptly before the
menstrual period. I can report from my own experience that swings in
P level made me much more irritable than changes in T level. Note, however,
that we call a woman who is hormonally irritable “bitchy” rather
than “raging,” and see her as less threatening. . . In any case,
my experience on T has been that since my T level remains fairly
constant as I use a moderate and regular dose, I don't “rage” at
all. My irritability levels are no higher than they were when I was
completely empty of sex steroids, and are much lower than they were
under the three-gonad-circus levels I produced naturally before
gonadectomy.
What's
really interesting, though, is that my behavior has become a lot less
dominating and aggressive than it was before my hormonal transition.
I used to be very vigorously argumentative. As an academic who was
read as a woman, I had to be quite assertive in order to have
authority in a classroom or at a conference. It's part of our gender
culture that men interrupt women, assuming greater authority in
conversation, and engage in the phenomenon of “mansplaining”
(i.e., explaining to a woman something she already knows in a
patronizing manner). To avoid loss of social prestige as an
academic, I was therefore very assertive in conversation, so as not
to allow myself to be interrupted or to appear “weak” in the
presentation of my ideas to (male) students or colleagues.
After
some time on HRT, I found myself taken aback by how I was being
perceived. People had become more reserved around me, and somehow
more hesitant in conversation. I made a couple of female students
cry when critiquing their comments. My behavior had not changed at
all—but my social gender had. The level of dominance I'd asserted
for many years was now coming across, not as simple authority, but as
intimidating. I wonder if some people thought T had made me “mean,”
or that I was acting in the gender-stereotyped manner cissexism claims
to be characteristic of trans people. In any case, I had to
consciously modify my behavior. It took me a while to retrain myself
to be more restrained and gentle in my presentation. It was kind of
amusing to learn how much more intimidating the assertive comments of
a person who is 5'2” would be taken once he was understood as
male—but also sad proof of the greater authority granted men in our
society. Such is male privilege. . .
So:
my take on the idea that T biologically induces rage and dominance is
that it is pretty much bullpucky. Big fluctuations in the level of T
can cause irritability, as do big swings in the level of E and P, but
that's about it.
I
don't mean to come across as saying that none of the changes that we
associate with temperament and relate to sex hormones have any
biological basis. One that I can speak to is crying. For many
years, with my high hormone load being dominated by E and P, I cried a lot, and I hated it. The crying stopped when my gonads
were removed, and did not resume when I started taking T, to my great
relief. And I see that my friends on HRT with E cry much more
easily. The thing is, this does not
mean I don't get sad or frustrated any less often than I did in the
past, or that they used to be emotionally insensitive and now are
oversensitive. One of my trans women friends sees being able to cry when
upset as one of the greatest gifts of HRT, because people will
finally acknowledge the depth of her feelings. I am happy that I
don't tear up easily anymore because I have always enjoyed being treated as having
an emotional even keel. These relate clearly to gender roles, in
which being emotionally expressive is valued in women and devalued in men. Hormones
may affect how often we cry, but it's society that gives that great
meaning.
Consider
this: like crying, hiccups are also related to higher levels of
estrogen. I used to get the hiccups a lot; now I don't. However,
since hiccups are not burdened by any gender meanings in our society,
nobody else has noticed or gives a fig leaf how often I hiccup. Also
related to estrogen are more mobile bowels—people with high E suffer from
irritable bowel syndrome a lot more than people with low E. A less irritable bowel is another thing
I've enjoyed about my T-only hormonal balance that is clearly
biologically-induced, but given no social meaning in my transition.
The fact that I don't cry much anymore, however, has been remarked
upon a lot, and is treated as highly significant.
So,
the relationship between nature and nurture in producing “sex
difference” is complex. What is clear is that since humans are
such profoundly social beings, social forces shape even those things
that are usually thought of as “purely biological,” like the
effects of sex hormones. It's one of the things that makes
understanding humans fascinating.
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